Ain't No Feeling Like Being Free

i started off good, writing in here everyday. i need to keep up, but i've been busy... or lazy. however you want to classify it, it resulted in me missing more than a week of entries.

recently, i've been forced to take a closer look at things and really think about how it is that i want to live my life. what i want to do, who i want to be, where i want to go, when i want to do these things, and who i want to be included. not who i want to be included in each step of my life, but who i want to be a part of my life in general. it sounds a little corny, but it's a big deal to me. actually, i think if it sounds corny, then you just haven't gotten there yet. you will. eventually you'll stop and think about everything that's going on with you. once you think you have everything figured out, that's when life smacks you back to reality. and you'll see that there's still a long way until it's all clear.

are we there yet? no.

if you pay close attention, there are many lessons to be learned each day. i try to pay attention. i think it makes a difference.

true happiness is a goal of mine. i was there once, but... i'm gonna say that didn't count. i'm always ALMOST there... but almost just isn't good enough anymore.

on a lighter note, the semester is almost over. 7 school days left until the conclusion of classes. i'm excited because i don't have any finals, so dec. 14th is really my last day of the fall semester. one more to go and i'm done with undergrad.

and i'll be right back for grad school. gotta keep the momentum going and stay on the education track while i still have the energy. i know some people are taking breaks before getting their master's. that's cool and i wish i could do the same, but i know me. i'll take a break from school, and enjoy myself too much and not wanna go back. my willpower is on low.

i can't wait til big bro comes back. just 3 more months. maybe 4. we'll see.

check out the destiny's child cd... track 9. if you don't have it, you can get it off me on my aol screen name if you do a "get file." that's where all my music is.

take heed: i am interested only in the present. if you can concentrate always on the present, you'll be a happy person... life is the moment we're living right now. so stop worrying, stop wondering and just live.