Friends... How Many of Us Have Them?

Yesterday
so it begins. the snow. i keep hearing different amounts that we're supposed to be getting. the point is, that it's gonna be a lot. we'll be snowed in, so it's the perfect opportunity to get fucked up for no reason. break out the liquor.

i'm watchin this sweet 16 thing on mtv. these girls are so damn spoiled. i just don't understand. i know if i had it like that, i wouldn't act all "holier than thou." don't get me wrong, i would make sure i had whatever i wanted, but i'm not the kind of person that's extra into the name brands and stuff. if i had money like that, what would be more important to me is getting what i want when i want. like, if i'm in the mall, i can buy what i want. it doesn't have to be gucci or prada or coach. does it sound like i'm hating? cause that's not it. i really just wish that other people could have more as opposed to a few people having it all. especially when those few don't appreciate or realize how lucky they are. however, when they do appreciate the abundance of monetary funds they possess, then i'm ok with that. because then it's understood that how you live is not the norm.

i dunno where all that came from.

winter break is winding down. thank goodness. i'm getting sick of the full time work life. it's so ugh. i understand that's how it works. you need a job to be able to do anything, because you need the money and the benefits. but sheesh. can't i just sleep?

Today
so i no longer know who my real friends are. again, i have to stop and evaluate who is worth it. everytime this shit happens it makes me mad. why can't you just do what i do for you? you expect certain things from me as a friend, so why is it that you can't do the same for me? fuck it. my friend list is gettin shorter and shorter by the day, while my associate list gets longer. it's ok. it's all good. the Lord only shows you what he wants you to see. sometimes i close my eyes to it, but now they're wide open. i'm too through. that's the final fuckin straw.

it just added to a horrible night last night. i got too drunk and threw up like 3 times and wasn't able to go back to sleep until like 5 in the mornin.

i just don't feel like writin no more.